A Near Escape

I have to write about this.
Sometime ago, I'd mentioned the Merman I'm seeing.
Still seeing, stupidly.
Partly becasue I'm not sure, caught off-guard, and partly because I'm afraid to leave him, since he stalks me when I do, I'm still seeing him.


Physical abuse hurts.
Hurts our psyches, our feelings, our feelings of self-worth.
He, this Merman, who is literally twice my size, and, being a Mer, is a very powerful male, is so afraid of losing me that he has made me want to leave him.
By being so possessive, by being so scary to me, and by, as with two nights ago, being physically abusive to me, he's making me wish he was an an entirely different ocean.


When his paranoia made him perceive that I was unhappy and he felt that I was about to leave for good, he threw me into a rocky cliffside, near where we had been swimming, eating the seaweeds that grow along the bank, and then, threatening to kill us both if he couldn't keep me, he put his hands across my mouth and nose, stopping me from taking in water!


I could have died!
And now my neck and shoulders, my side, and my spirit hurts.


I could have others help me - some Mermen I know - but then, I'd still be looking over my fins everywhere I turned, wondering when he would emerge through the gloom and overtake me - and really take us both down for good!


Oh, yes, Mermen, as your land men, get this way.
Far too many Mermaids and land women die at the hands of these vicious, controlling males every year.


Brutality, bullying someone smaller than oneself, is a horrible crime, and sometimes we feel there is nowhere to turn, no way to get away.


I'm praying to God for a door to open - the right door for me, and to be protected in the meantime, and I pray for all females, all kids, all smaller than the brutes they are forced to live around, until their liberation comes and they can, again, be free.


Pry for me.

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August 21, 2009

Just, in the Northern realms of our planet, one more month of Summer.

I always get a little misty in late Summer, when I see the subtle signs of Winter's approach.

The last day of Summer, on September 21, is always a day that I personally celebrate by being as Summery as possible.

Speaking of the blues, do you remember when I'd said I was having relationship woes?

That Merman who was being too possessive? Too bestial?

Yes, I know that all Mermen, at least in your own human histories, have had the reputation for being fierce, tough on females, and so on, but really, as with your own specie, Mermen have to be considered individually.

Some are sensitive, tender, compassionate ( I mean, to females! All Mermen are saviours of all other wildlife, heroic, and so on...strong, protective), and when the protective thing in their genes gets out of proportion, well...

Anyway, I've been realy in limbo about it for a couple of years now!

He's such a wonderful guy...we have so much fun together...

I can't allow myself to be controlled, or afraid...even a little.

He says he's so in love with me that he'll kill himself if I leave him, and sometimes...he threatens to kill us both.

That's not normal.

I hope all of you human females will take care to get protected from your beaux if they, too, get too possessive, controlling, and scary.

I am taking time apart, now, to assess the situation.

He's getting help - professional help - Yes, Mers also have their needs for counseling, and spiritual advice. In this, we're similar - our two species.

Next time I'll be more "up" for you all.

Swim on!